An ending and new beginnings
Thursday, December 31, 2009 by The Traveler
Another day filled with tears. A day that was spent only being able to briefly tell a friend we will be here for them, even if it takes a couple of years. A day spent being angry about people, dishonesty, and hopelessness. A day spent grieving and trying to heal hearts torn asunder and not feeling successful about it. A day spent with family. A day sleeping as much as possible to escape. A day spent with quality time with the kids, being joyful, playing games. A day watching the kids play and just being themselves. A day ending a day, a month, a year, and a decade.
This year started off with so much turmoil. Courts and custody problems, a very troubled child, a pay cut, multiple furloughs at work, money problems, struggles with completing my undergraduate internship, but things seemed to improve mid-year. I graduated college after 10 years with my bachelor's, started graduate school, lined up financial support and nailed down resources for the poor, quit my job of 6 years, started a wonderful internship, assisted my husband with going back to school. Then November came around and shit hit the fan, illnesses, a very troubled child, finals, papers, more child troubles, a friend arrested, struggling to pass classes, money problems, and a heaping pile of emotions.
It is amazing that in one year so much can happen. I can't even begin to think in depth about what this past 10 years has been like, but can recall key things like separation, bankruptcy, divorce, 2 more children, a lay-off, a new employer, furloughs, completing my 2- and 4-year degrees, remarriage, friendships, personal growth. During this past 10 years, I went from being 26 to 36 years old and in the course of that time, feeling like two totally different people, but finally coming into my own.
I can't imagine what next year is going to be like, much less what things will be like in 10...but I can hope, pray, and plan that the lessons learned will be used wisely in my future, the future of those that I love, and in my work with others.
Me
This year started off with so much turmoil. Courts and custody problems, a very troubled child, a pay cut, multiple furloughs at work, money problems, struggles with completing my undergraduate internship, but things seemed to improve mid-year. I graduated college after 10 years with my bachelor's, started graduate school, lined up financial support and nailed down resources for the poor, quit my job of 6 years, started a wonderful internship, assisted my husband with going back to school. Then November came around and shit hit the fan, illnesses, a very troubled child, finals, papers, more child troubles, a friend arrested, struggling to pass classes, money problems, and a heaping pile of emotions.
It is amazing that in one year so much can happen. I can't even begin to think in depth about what this past 10 years has been like, but can recall key things like separation, bankruptcy, divorce, 2 more children, a lay-off, a new employer, furloughs, completing my 2- and 4-year degrees, remarriage, friendships, personal growth. During this past 10 years, I went from being 26 to 36 years old and in the course of that time, feeling like two totally different people, but finally coming into my own.
I can't imagine what next year is going to be like, much less what things will be like in 10...but I can hope, pray, and plan that the lessons learned will be used wisely in my future, the future of those that I love, and in my work with others.
Me
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