Another day...things moving forward
Saturday, February 6, 2010 by The Traveler
Got the mail today and received the news I've been waiting for with trepidation for about a month now. Charged with 2 felony counts and court will be in a little less than a month. I only found out about the specific charges because they sent me both letters instead of sending the one to the other parent's house. So I had to drive it over there and have an hour long (and heated at times) discussion about what was in the papers and what to expect and/or plan for.
It's so hard to think and feel much except for sadness...sadness that things have come down to this and their life has changed for ever. All I can hope and pray is that things will work out for the best. It's hard for me to accept that things are truly out of my hands and all I can do is mentally and emotionally prepare for the unknown. Will they be put on probation and ordered intensive counseling, or out-of-home placement/residential treatment, or will the system be draconian and order them incarcerated with no hope for help? I want a crystal ball, I want the answers, I hate living with uncertainty. But uncertainty is going to be a new companion, so if I want to retain my sanity, I will have to find a way to embrace, if not that, accept more uncertainty.
I strongly believe that if they get the appropriate help now and assistance with their other needs, this will never, ever, happen again. How I can convince others of this and stress that this is what needs to happen, I don't know. I'm fighting a losing battle with the other parent. Their goals are to not have to spend anything or be made to do anything. How could I have made such a crappy choice when I decided way back in the day to get married to them and all that followed.
I'm so scared and there is so little information out there for me. It also sucks that I don't have any money to hire someone to help me. I wish I knew where to go and whom to talk with that could provide something for me and my family and make sure we would all be taken care of in the most appropriate manner. So I will do the best that I can and figure out what I can do.
Me
It's so hard to think and feel much except for sadness...sadness that things have come down to this and their life has changed for ever. All I can hope and pray is that things will work out for the best. It's hard for me to accept that things are truly out of my hands and all I can do is mentally and emotionally prepare for the unknown. Will they be put on probation and ordered intensive counseling, or out-of-home placement/residential treatment, or will the system be draconian and order them incarcerated with no hope for help? I want a crystal ball, I want the answers, I hate living with uncertainty. But uncertainty is going to be a new companion, so if I want to retain my sanity, I will have to find a way to embrace, if not that, accept more uncertainty.
I strongly believe that if they get the appropriate help now and assistance with their other needs, this will never, ever, happen again. How I can convince others of this and stress that this is what needs to happen, I don't know. I'm fighting a losing battle with the other parent. Their goals are to not have to spend anything or be made to do anything. How could I have made such a crappy choice when I decided way back in the day to get married to them and all that followed.
I'm so scared and there is so little information out there for me. It also sucks that I don't have any money to hire someone to help me. I wish I knew where to go and whom to talk with that could provide something for me and my family and make sure we would all be taken care of in the most appropriate manner. So I will do the best that I can and figure out what I can do.
Me
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