There has to be a silver lining somewhere!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009 by The Traveler
I'm still beat and school starts again in less than 2 weeks. I'm still trying to 1) find an appropriate attorney and 2) find the $ to pay for it. Sucks being at 130% of the FPL! I've only got 5 weeks till court again and I'm so screwed right now.
I'm hopeful things will work out and doing my best to try and get things to happen, but getting more anxious and nervous it won't as time goes on. I want him to be safe, secure, nurtured, loved, valued, and protected. However, there is a real chance the court will not grant me the relief I seek.
The best news I got yesterday, in spite of all the hell Derek has gone through up to the end of that horrible day this past November, he is doing better. His school is now providing him proper supports through his IEP (still have some additional testing, but that won't impact his eligibility - in fact I think it will further strengthen it), he has a good rapport and is working well with his therapist, he is trying to actively be a part of our family, and he brought his grades up and is now passing ALL subjects. Looking back over 6 weeks ago, where he had nothing but C's, D's & F's, it is really wonderful he did what he needed to do to get everything turned around and now he has A's, B's, and only 1 C. I am so proud of him and keep telling him so!
Unfortunately, he's still very anxious and has a lot of things to work through emotionally, but the person I've always believed in and known as my son is peaking out through the heavy, dark clouds that have shrouded him for so long. I just hope and pray it will continue, even if my worst case scenario happens - that he has to start spending any real length of time w/his dad, especially unsupervised.
More Later,
Me
I'm hopeful things will work out and doing my best to try and get things to happen, but getting more anxious and nervous it won't as time goes on. I want him to be safe, secure, nurtured, loved, valued, and protected. However, there is a real chance the court will not grant me the relief I seek.
The best news I got yesterday, in spite of all the hell Derek has gone through up to the end of that horrible day this past November, he is doing better. His school is now providing him proper supports through his IEP (still have some additional testing, but that won't impact his eligibility - in fact I think it will further strengthen it), he has a good rapport and is working well with his therapist, he is trying to actively be a part of our family, and he brought his grades up and is now passing ALL subjects. Looking back over 6 weeks ago, where he had nothing but C's, D's & F's, it is really wonderful he did what he needed to do to get everything turned around and now he has A's, B's, and only 1 C. I am so proud of him and keep telling him so!
Unfortunately, he's still very anxious and has a lot of things to work through emotionally, but the person I've always believed in and known as my son is peaking out through the heavy, dark clouds that have shrouded him for so long. I just hope and pray it will continue, even if my worst case scenario happens - that he has to start spending any real length of time w/his dad, especially unsupervised.
More Later,
Me
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I'm sorry it's diificult right now. It doesn't matter that life won't always be like it is at certain moments or if we logically understand everything we need to do, digesting the emotions and learning tolive with problems take a tremndious amount of effort. I hope you're somehow able to take time for yourself so you can deal with everything. Sending you a hug.
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